Wednesday, August 17
i actually had a lot to say. but given my decision to blog like everyone else, it really limits my scope.
math test sucked. i drew the wrong net and therefore everything's wrong. hooray.
janet got full marks for her econs test. i hate you, janet. haha no kidding, you know i love you. i saw her name flashed up on the visualiser and cried out, what? janet got full marks? she didn't tell me, that ass!! yeah janet chang you never tell me things. and i tell you everything! except who's my eyecandy. hahahahahha
felt really down today even though nothing bad happened. well nothing good happened either. well today was just a horrible day for me. i am not going to think about it further because happy people don't think. i am just going to let it go.
one reason i've more or less decided on my future is because i don't see much of one. no goals, no drive, no determination. my sister said my mother can withdraw her cpf money already, but she only wants to give her half because the other half is for me. i don't need much. just enough for a course at nus. she might as well take the rest because she's gonna go to a good uni and study really hard and earn loads of money and prestige. besides, they'll pay me to study at nie. so she can use the money to go get her honours and masters and everything else. i'm resigned to my fate as a low-profile failure.
there i've depressed myself again.
i don't want to have an 'old soul'. it renders me unable to appreciate certain forms of silliness. and then i just look like some crabby uptight person, when really i just want to sit and think.
whalagai calagant youlagu seelagee thalagat alagai alagam solago lolagost wilagith-olagout youlagu.
i'm not auditory. i'm visual.
it must've been love.
8:44 pm
xoxo
